I am not a body. I am free.

(A Course in Miracles Workbook Lesson 199)

On this bright and steamy July morning I’m walking by necessity to get a package in transit before afternoon storms arrive, feeling grumpy about disrupting my routine by going out before breakfast. Routine keeps my stress down, and thus is part of my wellness strategy.

I’ve known I have chronic Lyme disease for nearly two years; herbal treatment is working extremely well. My pain is mostly gone, my brain is out of the fog and I wake up every morning with a middle-class wallet of energy to spend. But my stamina and stress tolerance are only peeking out from the hole that was swallowing me, so daily life has changed a lot. For one thing, I no longer walk for an hour almost every day, climbing 13 flights of stairs along the way. Instead, I walk when a whole set of conditions is right, my schedule allows and a dead-duck energy crash (profound fatigue from pushing the limit too far) won’t derail the day’s appointments. Or tomorrow’s. Or a stretch of session days stacked up like a card house.

Natural movement, fresh air and sweat all support recovery, so I walk every chance I get. Lighter by one package, I’m marching through pound cake air to the trill of cicadas, ever onward to the next patch of shade, unconcerned about any moment but this one, and it happens. I am free. I experience freedom.

If you’ve ever been ill or in pain, you know that the body is a vigilant jailer working to keep your attention tangled up in physicality. Suffer with me, body screams. You are me and I am you, and we are stuck together in this Godforsaken place. Illness and pain are difficult to transcend, even as we heal. They compel our focus and shape our choices. And yet here I am, incompletely healed, still weighted by limitations, but floating in freedom. Ahhhhhh.

As my body glides along, I notice that freedom is not in the action. It doesn’t matter that I’m walking, which is just a doorway. Freedom is in the spirit. Freedom is a feeling. That’s why we can embody it in the most unlikely places.

The moment I decide to write this, I notice my right hip hurts a bit. It doesn’t matter. I float along.

That freedom is in the spirit rather than the body is no new revelation. But every time we personally plant our flag in this truth, the power of discovery is reborn. Let us choose freedom often and well, until it is our nerve center.

If your body is dragging you down today, you are not alone. There is freedom for you, too—in a nap, a prayer, a song, a laugh, a story, a meeting of eyes, a touch, your next meal or even in your next dose of herbs or medication. No matter your circumstances, freedom still belongs to you. May you allow it to walk with you. Today is Independence Day!

I am not a body. I am free.

For I am still as God created me.

(A Course in Miracles Workbook Lessons 201-220)

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Mira Carroll

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2 Responses to “Freedom”
  1. Elaine says:

    A different perspective on Independence Day. Thank you.

    Liked by 1 person

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